| Here is the post wherein I appreciate people who say nice things about me. It's all egotistical like that, and why shouldn't it be? Yesterday was my 33rd birthday.
A lot has changed in this last year. Not to be too deep or introspective. It's been rough. If I'd known then what I know now and all of that, I would have hidden under the covers on September 13th, 2003 and never climbed back out.
Let me pose a question to those of you with sympathetic ears...although you could also have sympathetic nostrils, sinus cavities, throats, etc.
Do you think that spending time with Leonardo DiCaprio and/or Ethan Hawke is a capital offense, payable only by being broken up with? I didn't either. But this was being 32 for me.
I should have known when I wasn't on the cover of SWAT. I really, really should have known.
Does it get any better than this? | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment   |
| It's my girlfriends birthday today. She's 26. Happy birthday babe. I tried to call you earlier. Around 7-8ish. I was outSIDE, but Gwen's dad never answered the door and I couldn't get around the guys in the garage to hop the fence or anything. I'm just chillin' here at home, and I really want to see you, even though your birthday is almost over. Can I come over? Or do you want to come over here? Call me?
In fact, I'll call you in a couple of minutes. I just wanted to post and let you know how wonderful I think you are.
I love you too,
Josh | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| My journal entries and/or design are not meant specifically to cause the questioning of my sexuality. I know some of you think that, perhaps, the creation of some masculine hormone ceased to be created with the removal of my kidney, but that is just plain not true. I am straight. I have a girlfriend. I have, in fact, been dumped by enough women to, under normal circumstances, make me wonder if it wouldn't be smart of me to begin to favor members of my own team. But these are not normal circumstances. Witness. My girlfriend then. Jennifer Connelly. Hideous. Mean. Cheating on me. My girlfriend now. Jora. Perfect. Wonderful. Not hideous. Not mean. Her mom even says we'd have adorable children, which is admittedly girly of me to acknowledge. But I am still NOT GAY. And anyone who might be reading or having any other contact for any other reason with this journal SHOULD HAVE NO INTENTIONS OR HAS NO INTENTION OF ATTEMPTING TO CONVEY ME AS SO. :)
Except no one is conveying me. I am Josh all by myself.
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| | Time: | 07:12 pm | | Current Mood: | accomplished |
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| | They put sea monkeys in the water in Canada, and I am really, really cute. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Okay, this is what's going on around here: My girlfriend's best friend made me an icon using Photoshop.
I think it's safe to say that my journal is now slightly more than vaguely gay.
I think it's safe to say, in fact, that it's fire island around here.
Oh God. I have a *journal*
I *AM* GAY. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| Peter Krause was nominated for an Emmy for best actor in a drama series for "Six Feet Under" last night. William H. Macy won two for "Door to Door". Aaron Sorkin's "West Wing" did quite well. I didn't join in the festivities, as I was at home, on my couch, eating Cocoa Puffs and trying to watch AMC, instead.
I need another job. I am bored. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I'll be 32.
It feels like a huge milestone. I didn't even mind 30 that much, but all of a sudden, this one's hitting me pretty hard. I went down to San Diego, but now I wish ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) jorajo was here. I think if I could look at her and her pretty teeth, and talk to her, this wouldn't be as difficult. Maybe it would pass more quickly.
I just keep thinking.."this is the last day I'll ever be 31." | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| But I'm not. I'm a real man. I'm going fishing tomorrow and...hunting on Monday, but I won't kill the defenseless animals, I'm just going so I can wear the vest and drive a big ass truck and stuff. I am also master of all I survey. And I don't smell girly. I smell like a man. A big, tough, dirty, hairy MAN.
Anyway, that said...sweetheart, Rhonda, love of my life...You should trust me because...this is no excuse but I was kidding...I was messing around and I stuck my foot up my ass, I know I did. But honey, I would die without you. You complete me. You make my life worth living. You smell like flowers. I like flowers. You are pretty, and I like pretty. You have cute knees. I could stare into your hazely eyes all day long. I love you more than sports.
*cough*
That was the sound of a real man, begging his woman to come back to him. Because he knows he is nothing without her. Except smelly and hairy. He would probably forget to shower and clip his toenails if it weren't for her. Also he would starve, because all he can cook is Top Ramen, and then only when he eats it straight from the package...so it's not really cooking at all.
I'm so sorry I hurt you, pumpkin, honey bunny, bisquick, daisy, beautiful, pretty, wonderful chocolate puff.
Will you please take me back? | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Limp Bizkit - Rearranged | | Time: | 07:09 pm |
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| Josh Kelly - Amazing.
You paint a picture on the wall
Cause you've got a lot to tell me
But you don't think you could say it better
Oh baby
You're bringing up times I can't recall
And I'm sure they made your point
But I just can't seem to remember, yeah
And I know you got the feeling
And I can't say I'm agreeing
With your topic of conversation
So just listen to the reasons
And the handset I've been giving
To the thoughts of my imagination
So come on let me see
I say baby you are amazing
I want to let you see
That you are everything and more to me
I will let you be I will I will
Cause I saw you walking down the hall
And I had a lot to tell you
But I didn't think you could say it better, oh baby
You're good at makin' me feel so small
And I know you made your point
But I just don't want to remember yeah
And I know you've got the feelin'
And I can't say I'm agreein' with your topic of conversation
So just listen to the reasons
And the hints that I've been given
To the thoughts of my imagination
SO come on let me see
I say baby you are amazing
I want to let you see
That you are everything and more to me
I will let you be I will I will
Cause I'm dancing around
In your world of play
I'm taking my time to make sure you stay
I would give my life to make it okay yeah
So come on let me see
I say baby you are amazing
I want to let you see
That you are everything and more to me
I will let you be I will I will | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Dylan Thomas - Do Not Go Gentle into That Good Night | | Subject: | #2 | | Time: | 06:59 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/shock.gif) scared |
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| | I will die if jorajo doesn't take me back | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I am awash in a sea of anarchy. My limbs have been rent from my body. I am slain, slayed and killed. I fought the law and the law won.
I... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I just left a crack addled comment in my woman's best friend's livejournal, and I have the feeling that she took it the *wrong* way. Because I am an idiot who deserves not this fallow breath within which life is sown anew amidst the broken strands of my Jennifer Connoly hating body. Rhonda, I love you. I do sincerely and ardently love you. Chocolate cake is good, but you are better.
I would give my canine teeth to see you smile.
I didn't mean it, I swear I didn't mean it. You...are...my...air. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| My girlfriend's away message on AIM is that she loves me.
I love you too, baby. I love you too. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I gave her my kidney. And then I took it back. I am deeply sorry that I did that. But I have issues with commitment. I am better now.
I will love her forever and ever. Until I die. From kidney failure, probably. But it will be worth it. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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